Deeper Musings

Thoughts on the connections and deeper aspects of living

Morning Stillness

By Deborah Penner / July 11, 2019

I like to start my days in this space of deep connection. No matter how I wake up … in a funk, worried, happy, excited … when I sit out here and simply listen for a bit, I am connected with everything. The essence drops in, makes itself known to me.  I want to capture…

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Pigeons on a Wire with the words "A Remembrance: Why Hospice?

A Remembrance of Why ~ Why Hospice?

By Deborah Penner / February 3, 2018

I am getting ready to return to hospice in a volunteer capacity and I am excited! The volunteer training starts in less than two weeks. One of the things asked of me in prep for the training is to find a photo that represents what hospice means to me … I sat with it over…

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Cuddling Kittens with words "Animals have it Down"

Touch Starved?

By Deborah Penner / June 11, 2017

  Heads up … this is not my usual peaceful and calm offering. And yet, it is what showed up this morning – all I can think of is that perhaps there is a nugget that will offer relief to someone here? I never know … I simply offer. I just had a big giant…

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Multi-colored stars ... shattered

Welcome to my Sweet Shattering

By Deborah Penner / March 5, 2017

I learned something this week. Simple in its essence, and profound in its effect. Do do the opposite of what you would normally do when you are wanting to make a change and everything in you is resisting, when the part of your brain that is designed to protect you from change is doing its…

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Deepening and Consistent Pleasure

By Deborah Penner / February 19, 2017

I am learning to hold a deepening and more consistent pleasure. More importantly, I am understanding that it is always a choice. I am always at choice. There is a sense of chaos in coming to that place,  perhaps complicated  by the fact that pleasure has been neurologically wired to fear in my brain and…

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Fierce Tiger Head with words Love is Fierce

Get Over It!

By Deborah Penner / November 20, 2016

No matter what “it” is, there is someone somewhere who will disapprove of you, who will judge you as bad for your desire, your viewpoint, your way of coping, your way of processing, the fact that you process at all … the list goes on and on. There is a point where I must without…

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Delight in my Truest Til Death Do Us Part Partner

By Deborah Penner / September 4, 2016

Learning to live and move in deep partnership, in the deepest of love with my truest til death do us part partner delights me. One of the longings of my heart now that I’ve shifted back into a place where I know that I can move in solitude on the dance floor, is to begin…

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Expand the Perimeter of Your Visual Field

By Deborah Penner / August 28, 2016

Look up. Look out. Expand the perimeter of your visual field. Let the beauty of what’s present now make itself known. Give it the space to be known in your present awareness.   Earlier this week, I had an epiphany experience as I was walking up the path to my apartment. The path in my…

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Love with an Edge

By Deborah Penner / July 10, 2016

I have been inspired to adjust the fonts on my website. I’ve noticed that the sweet almost pristine Over the Rainbow font that I’ve used for the logo and the headlines no longer expresses the place that I inhabit. Because love, while it has a sweetness to it, also comes with a razor sharp restless…

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Sensations of Pleasure

Allowing the Sensations of Pleasure

By Deborah Penner / May 29, 2016

What if I made pleasure my complete focus, allowing everything else to show up as it shows up? Attaching no meaning to the sensation, whichever end of the spectrum it is on,  choosing instead a simple allowing of the sensations, dancing through this life in a state of pleasure in the midst of everything going…

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