I am learning to hold a deepening and more consistent pleasure. More importantly, I am understanding that it is always a choice. I am always at choice. There is a sense of chaos in coming to that place, perhaps complicated by the fact that pleasure has been neurologically wired to fear in my brain and…
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I have not known how to navigate the madness that hits me every time I log into Facebook since 1/20/17 without shutting it out completely. Until now. For some shutting it off entirely is a viable option. For me, not so much. I help run two groups and I am a part of a group…
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Someone told me recently that I am old school. Me. Old school. Mind blown. It is not a term I’ve ever applied to myself. It was followed by “That’s what’s cool about you …” What? It felt like a blow off … and in that moment, it probably was. My friend was not interested…
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I spent some time Saturday morning journaling about the positive aspects of icy roads, feeling stuck at home and solitude bordering at times on isolation. If everything is always working out for me (and it is) the roads should be clear so I can drive on them, dammit! Isolation isn’t good for me! Everyone knows…
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Joy filled holidays from my heart to yours. I would love to be sitting across from you at Starbucks or Imagine Coffee (an artist’s haven in my area) or at Emily’s Beanery (the name my beautiful friend Bethlyn and I lovingly give to the Beanery near Market of Choice in Corvallis) having deep conversation. I…
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As part of the Web Designer Strategy Academy beta group, I am taking stock of everything in my life this month and looking at how it has evolved and changed. I’ve always been reluctant to do this, believing that it would be depressing to see what did not happen for me. Instead, while there are…
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Breathe it in, dance it through. Breath it in. Dance it through. Permission to feel it … whatever it is, to breathe it in, to dance it through. I started this morning as I woke up and yesterday jumped in almost instantly … and the day before and before … a series of intense and…
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Late Thursday morning, I felt squashed in a vice of worry … worry bordering on panic that I might not be able to figure out the coding to make the website I am finishing up look amazing on tiny technology without having to make time consuming changes. Worry that if I didn’t stop worrying I’d…
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No matter what “it” is, there is someone somewhere who will disapprove of you, who will judge you as bad for your desire, your viewpoint, your way of coping, your way of processing, the fact that you process at all … the list goes on and on. There is a point where I must without…
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