Posts by Deborah Penner
Joy Beneath the Chaos?
Joy filled holidays from my heart to yours. I would love to be sitting across from you at Starbucks or Imagine Coffee (an artist’s haven in my area) or at Emily’s Beanery (the name my beautiful friend Bethlyn and I lovingly give to the Beanery near Market of Choice in Corvallis) having deep conversation. I…
Read MoreBreathe it In, Dance it Through
updated 8/24/23 Breathe it in, dance it through. Breath it in. Dance it through. Permission to feel it … whatever it is, to breathe it in, to dance it through. I started this morning as I woke up and yesterday jumped in almost instantly … and the day before and before … a series of…
Read MoreTrue Love is Fiercely Get Over It!
No matter what “it” is, there is someone somewhere who will disapprove of you, who will judge you as bad for your desire, your viewpoint, your way of coping, your way of processing, the fact that you process at all … the list goes on and on. There is a point where I must without…
Read MoreRenewed Focus on What Matters (It's Not What You Think)
I learned something crucial this week … For better or worse, my default is to go to worst case scenario. My children have been telling me this for most of their lives. I thought it was just them being my kids and playing devil’s advocate because that is what kids do. Turns out there was…
Read MoreWhen I Forget that I Am My First Love
There’s a man who I love dearly with everything I have. I have for the past 11 years. No matter what has gone on between us, the love remains. But when I love him dearly with everything I have and after awhile forget that I am my first love, I forget also that I am…
Read MoreThe Man of Firsts
This week I downloaded Pam Grout’s newest book, Thank and Grow Rich, onto my Kindle. She’s not talking about amassing money by being thankful although that is, I’m told, a sweet side effect. She’s talking about cultivating the deepest of awareness that everything is here for us. Every experience, every person in our path, every…
Read MoreDelight in my Truest Til Death Do Us Part Partner
Learning to live and move in deep partnership, in the deepest of love with my truest til death do us part partner delights me. One of the longings of my heart now that I’ve shifted back into a place where I know that I can move in solitude on the dance floor, is to begin…
Read MoreExpand the Perimeter of Your Visual Field
Look up. Look out. Expand the perimeter of your visual field. Let the beauty of what’s present now make itself known. Give it the space to be known in your present awareness. Earlier this week, I had an epiphany experience as I was walking up the path to my apartment. The path in my…
Read MoreThat Thin Line Between Fear and Excitement
Investigating the thin line between fear and excitement, Feeling the difference in the internal landscape that is me. Feeling the tilt in my system from excitement to the fear, What thought pushed excitement over into fear? Is there another way to experience it, another way to perceive it? Could I have stopped the careen into…
Read MoreGive in to the Pleasure of Acceptance
Updated Sept 1, 2023 You know how they say that you can never go back? They’re wrong! You can. You can bring all that old stuff up front and center again and again as often as you want. It feels just as if it were going on now. Your brain doesn’t know the difference. There…
Read MoreEmpty (and Brimming with Life)
I am empty this week. Empty. It’s a good place to be as we move through the final phase of this moon and into that in between space between the old and the new, past and future … and isn’t that where everything is always happening? In the perceived in between place – right here…
Read MoreSometimes Bed Whacking is the Only Thing
Now is powerful! I’m beginning to recognize this a completely new way, this full on power of current moment. The fact is that it is all I have. Now is when I get to choose my response to life as it shows up and set my vibrational tone. My projections into the future aka worry…
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